Monday, October 03, 2005

Monday Madness

Actually it wasn't too bad for a Monday.

I made out my to do list, rewrote my articles due list and cleaned out my mail box. I trolled for some article sources and wrote some relatives that needed writen.

I need to catch up onto my NW woman work and write up some articles, but mostly, I would like to finish my novel. I am so ready to put that on the back burner for a bit and concentrate on something else.

And I am feeling liek I suck. LOL Ever get that feeling? That you really just suck and no one is going to tell you the truth? I am starting to get that feeling. Like I want something so bad and it just isn't going to happen. Maybe because I do want it so bad? I don't know when I got that bad cloud feeling. The brain tumor might have had something to do with it!

Anyhoo... Sent of a proposal to an agent looking for a YA writer for a package deal today. Thought I might as well... what do I have to lose?

Though I am getting tired of living my life on pins and needles. Do writers always do this?

Okay... If I plan on finishing the article I might want to get started!


Bonnie Ferguson said...

I think everyone feels like they suck from time to time. It seems to be par for the course. It's never fun to be in the "I don't think this is going to happen" doldrums, but if you stick wit it, it will happen.

Rachel Vincent said...

Oh, I'm so glad you wrote that. I go through that at least one week out of every month. Seriously. During my "down" days, I feel like everything I write is awkward crap, even if it's following my outline. Words just don't seem to flow. They feel somehow...cluncky, or off-key, like a karaoke performance instead of a symphony. I hate those days!

But they eventually pass.

Elisabeth Naughton said...

Been there, feeling that.

I think we all go through "I suck at this" moments. Especially as writers. At the moment, I'm definitely feeling that. Printing out a requested full, glancing at pages thinking, "Crap, this is too long. Crap, this really sucks. CRAP, who would even want to read this drivel????"

But I know deep down it's fears - worries about not getting something I want so bad, just like you. Take comfort in knowing we all feel that way from time to time. And the best thing you can do when you get that down feeling is keep on writing. Determination will get us there.

Kristen Painter said...

You're doing great and if you don't know that, you should.

Seriously, you're SO motivated and you accomplish so much in a week.

Jaci Burton said...

we all feel that way, Teri. Well maybe Anne Rice doesn't, but most normal writers do *g*

Just hang in there and keep doing what you're doing. It'll pay off.