Thursday, June 16, 2005

On Motherhood

I have been working with my fab critique list on Pour Some...

Some questions have arisen on the resentment that my heroine sometimes feels towards her children. I thought some resentment in motherhood was normal... Sacrifice is hard. Love my children, lay down my life everyday for them, but am not always happy about it. I thought that was normal! Snort. Maybe not? HA! I always felt that motherhood was sometimes a conflicting experience. Especially with teens! For instance, my only lovely ice princess was throwing a fit because I wanted to leave a little early to drop her off at the rink. She was tired and didn't want to have to skate for that long and was afraid her coach would make her. She would be there about twenty minutes early...

I wanted to take her there early because I still have to run my son to the zoo, (ten miles in the opposite direction) Get back home, have a conference with an editor, finish a pile of newsletters for her skate club, run my son's mission letters to the postoffice, run and get her from the rink, and run and pick up my son from the post office. I wanted to get an early start. She was whining and it was all me me me. I was a bit resentful at that.

Now, teens can be selfish. It is the time of life they are in... It is my job to help them see that. But I still get resentful at the selfishness while I am sacrificing!

Now, this is also the child who did three hours of yardwork without being asked, so she does know how to give. But... You get the picture.

Motherhood isn't easy. It isn't all roses and moms don't always feel loving towards their children even if we always love them. Or am I a freak???
SNORT!

Have to run. Zoo time.

5 comments:

AGK said...

What a FREAK! ;) Nah, sounds normal to me!

J.F. Cossey said...

Not having any children, I can't speak for it, but I HAVE been a teenager... and I would say from this perspective it is normal (for what my childless opinion is worth, hehehe)

Bonnie Ferguson said...

I have to agree with AGK and Jessie :)

Shannon McKelden said...

As the mother of a 16yo daughter...normal all the way. One minute a complete angel, gushing about how I'm her best friend, the next shooting me hate darts with her eyes because I ask her to get off the computer for five minutes to do her chores. Yeah. Resentment rears its ugly head a few times a day at least. Then you go right back to loving them. :-)
Shannon

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